A country has been added to our trip to Asia this spring! INDIA! It has been my heart for a long time to go there and now I am getting the chance! But just because it is in the trip plan doesn't mean I am on the team. I am just praying that I will embrace where ever God sends me!

While in India we will be working with organizations that get women out of the sex trade (my dream). I am just getting so pumped about our trip to Asia.

And this Saturday is the Christmas Banquet!

Life is so exciting.


Today my new baby cousin who was 13 days old and eleven weeks premature passed away in his mother's arms.

Please, please pray for my cousin Chris and his wonderful wife, Wendy, as they are dealing with this extreme loss (and the rest of the family too).

I don't know why these things happen and I wish more than anything that they didn't.

I just beg you in this time to be in prayer for them, they are such wonderful people.


I had a dream I was back. Back home. In Haiti.

The Hope House kids had written a song for me and when they sang it I cried. Roseberline told me that since I had left she had been in darkness but now that I had returned I was in the light (as if any six year old would say that, especially an extremely sassy one).

Miseline was there too. And Stevenson. And all of them. Micherline gave me a hug but told me she still hated me, but even that I loved.

I remember hating myself because I didn’t know all of their names anymore. I was overcome with guilt and hate for myself because I didn’t know my own family’s names.

I had forgotten how to speak Creole and I was ashamed.

I remember crying a lot, because they had been waiting for me.

I remember asking Brad to think about hiring me.

But in the end, I was home. Sitting on a bench outside the Hope House, waiting for the Friday night movie to start surrounded by the brothers and sisters I have always prayed for.

Despite all the advice I receive about being a hundred percent where you are… I think part of me is still there. Still walking into that kitchen ready to teach class. Or lying on the floor in the girls’ dorm letting the tiles cool my skin while we do hair and read books.

Clearly my sub conscious is more torn up about not being there, with them, than I have let myself be.


As many of you know I traveled the long road home last weekend to attend one of my best friend's weddings!
It was SO great and so much fun to see my friends and family.

I was supposed to be flying back Sunday morning but my flight got cancelled so I got some quality time in with my parents. We went to see the new Harry Potter (so good)!

It was so great to be home and I already miss it so much BUT I am having fun here too. I am embracing the -30C weather and the sensation of my nose hairs freezing the second I walk outside.

Today when walking to school I had my scarf up around my face and when I got in the school I realized that my breath had frozen onto my scarf. The weather is unlike anything I have ever experienced... and it only gets worse.

The bridesmaids outside in strapless dresses. You Canadians cannot believe this right now.
Congrats Ava. I love you so much.



Our newest state of the art house feature.
Christmas is officially here. Because it is snowing and freezing outside.
And all we are listening to is Christmas jams.





I had the best Saturday. Woke up, got picked up. Went to my friend Johnathan's house and made a huge meal after going on a food shopping spree complete with an ice cream cake (Johnathan's treat)! We rented the back up plan to watch while we were cooking.

Good times filled with new friends and good food.
Then we got free tickets to the water park at West Edmonton mall (a famously giant mall). We went until 1030 pm. LeeAnna (my roommate slash best Canadian friend) and I rode every slide. It was epic.
Then an amusing trip to Wendy's with irritable staff.

LeeAnna and I went to my friend Brock's house and stayed until 4am.
This is the latest I have stayed up since I got here.

Such a good weekend, now it is time to hit the books.


Why is it when I tell people that I went to a liberal arts school they assume that I am a visual artist... especially painter?

Liberal Arts- –noun
The academic course of instruction at college intended to provide general knowledge and comprising the arts,
humanities, natural science, and social science as opposed to professional or technical subjects.

On another note... Christmas cookies!





Dear Christmastime,

I have been waiting in anticipation for you, well, since last Christmas ended. As of today I am officially accepted by society (at least in Canada (because we already had Thanksgiving)) for listening to Christmas music.

So even though I am a bit sad I won't be in New York this Christmas.

I am just awaiting that feeling when I get off the plane and see my family. I am waiting for eggnog and hot chocolate. Christmas movies. Christmas shopping. Sitting by the fire. Hanging out with my wonderful friends.

I cannot even explain how excited I am.


picture one: friends in new york (bryant park) last year, christmas. picture two: snow flakes on saks 5th ave, christmas.


If you would like to support my trip to Asia I would really really be grateful. We have a payment coming up at the end of November for a thousand dollars. If you would like me to send you a real letter just comment with your name and address.


Dear Friends and Family,

As many of you know I recently got back from a two-month trip to Haiti. To no surprise God changed my life in a radical way using many of His people that I met along the way. Also while I was in Haiti I decided to re-direct my path to better fit my passions. I decided to leave Sarah Lawrence and pursue missions.

I am currently attending a one-year missions program at Vanguard College in Alberta, Canada. In the spring semester I will have the opportunity to travel to South East Asia with my fellow mission students at Vanguard. We will be going to China, Thailand, Hong Kong, Cambodia, and the Philippines. We will be gone the majority of March and April 2011. While there we will take part in teaching English, helping with humanitarian aid, after school activities, church services in Hong Kong, and we will have the opportunity to work with some orphanages.

To make this trip happen and be a success your assistance would be greatly appreciated. Two main ways you can help are through prayer and financial support. We will be in need of much prayer because China is a nation where it is dangerous to speak about God on the streets. I also ask for prayer over the safety of our team and for God to use us to truly as His hands and feet.

There are also many financial needs that the trip calls for. The fee for the whole trip is $3,500. That includes airfare, accommodations, meals, and ministry expenses. As a student this money does not come to me easily and assistance in both prayer and financial aid would be greatly appreciated and considered and huge blessing. If you choose to support me financially checks can be made out to Vanguard College and must have my name on the check memo.

I ask that you would take part in this next step in my life with prayer or financial aid. I know that God will provide the means for me to embark on this life-changing trip.

Thank you for partnering with me in this next step in my life. If you have any questions please feel free to email me at abby.barwick@yahoo.com. Thank you so much for you involvement in my life. You are greatly appreciated.

Abby Barwick-Snell
Vanguard College
12140-103 Street
Edmonton, AB T5G 2J9

God bless.


This weekend we went away. One of my classes had a retreat that consisted of driving way out into the country and just spending quality time with people.


I made a lot of new and good friends this weekend and had so much fun!!

There was a lot of down time and no curfew which was so nice.

We had several worship services. We had an unscheduled baptism fest where 13 people got baptized.

On Saturday night we overflowed the hot tub because practically everyone was in it. We all jumped in the pool and made a GIANT whirl pool, the biggest I have ever seen!! Then we tried going the other way and it was impossible. Crazy what people can do when they work together.

So now I am home. Sore. With a quiz tomorrow that I am not going to do well on because I have to know the names of all the Caribbean Islands which is impossible in my opinion.

Two weeks until I go home for Ava's wedding!


the reason I keep forgetting to break out my Diana is the lack of beautiful architecture that this city has to offer. I find myself longing to photograph everyday life back in New York City or the iron crafted balconies of New Orleans. I guess I will have to make due, to find the beauty where it is hard to see. Maybe I can find it in the faces of people.


Meanwhile, I will day dream of tall buildings and the hussle and bussle of the city I left behind. I will live there again someday, I just know it.



I was going to wait until tomorrow to post but I just cannot contain myself.

Today was such an awesome day. We did urban ministry in downtown Edmonton. I served and ate lunch at a homeless shelter called Hope Mission.

And then me and two others made our way throughout the streets experiencing life as the homeless know it.

Later we went and sorted clothes at a place called the Mustard Seed.

There were tons of homeless people lined up on the street to get into the Seed, such a great opportunity to just talk to people.

It is amazing what a simple conversation could do.

Later at the Seed I sat down to talk with an older man sitting all by himself. We talked for hours about everything, life, American Politics, and "religion." He told me that he had lost his job but everyday he took care of a disabled man for no pay. He lived in a boarding home and had no family. He was so interesting and so smart.

I asked him if he had ever known Jesus on a personal level. Long story short I led him to dedicate his life to the Lord. It was the best thing that I have done yet-- or better yet, that God has done through me.

I invited him to my church. I don't know if he will come. But I will be praying for him every single day.

Now he knows it is not about religion, it is about a relationship with God.

This man changed me. He showed me what God can do if I allow Him to use me. This man also made me realize how important it is to me for homeless or less fortunate people to be welcomed in my church. Here, in Edmonton, at City Center I know he would be. But at home, I am struggling... because I am not so sure.

As much as we say that we are accepting and Jesus called us to love the poor and needy, I know that if a homeless person walked through those doors of my home church people would wonder... they would look at him with judgement and they may even be scared.

Now I am not trying to generalize because some people there were the ones who taught me how to love and even what missions meant.. But the population as a whole.. I am just not so sure.

This is just causing me to think. And I don't want to offend anyone. But I just feel I need to be somewhere that if I were to invite my homeless friends to come, they would be welcomed.

Tonight-- even though I was forced to be up so late-- has changed my life. I feel God just placing urban missions on my heart. Maybe not forever... But before, I was so scared of people on the streets. I didn't admit it but I was. I no longer am. Because we are all the same. And I have learned that tonight. We are all the same.

So as you go to bed tonight, don't forget to pray for those who don't have beds or showers. And I am not asking you to be more thankful (although that would be nice) and I am not asking you to give money (but that would be nice too). I am asking you to give your time. All people need is for someone to listen to them, to their story.

There could be countless amounts of money being poured into a mission but it would be nothing without people being there, being relational.

After all. Isn't that why we are here on earth. It's about relationships.

Think about it.




Now tell me why the same people who are instructed to be the bringers of hope to this world are the same people known for causing this pain.

Who gave you the right to point out sin in someone else's life. Look at the plank in your own eye.

Look to who Jesus is. Look at the life he lived.

We are instructed to love our neighbor as ourselves, to bring hope to this desperate world. Sometimes it just hurts to be placed in this group of people who call them selves "Christians" when we are not following Christ at all.


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